Advice to attending your Ex-lover's wedding

Handle with care…

Before the Wedding:

1. Unscrew rusted nails attached to main arteries. With expert palm, gorge out trembling heart from ribs.
2. Douse alcohol down chest area. Light a match. Drop inside. Frayed ends taken care of…
3. You shall go to the wedding without a heart.

During the Wedding:

1. Hand them six hundred and sixty-six dollars sealed in a red envelope in the church they say “I do”.
2. But like cancer, your love for her has spread to other parts of your body. You can still feel apparently.
3. Pop penadols like candy to stop the pain.
4. Hold back the desire to hug her when you shake her hand, congratulating her.
5. Smile, like you’ve practiced in front of the mirror ever since you were sixteen.
6. Then, as she enters the ballroom, welcome them with warmest applause, for they say loving someone meant being happy for her.
7. Numb emotions with alcohol
8. Visit washroom every ten minutes to check sanity level and correct smile.

After the Wedding:

1. Try keeping yourself alive, even though you’d be dead by then, or tortured worse than death.
2. Try hard not to vomit in your best friend’s car as he gives you a lift back.
3. Slump on piano chair, fingers too numb to move.
4. Now you have my permission to cry.
5. Let the tears reflect the image of her in her wedding gown trickle down the piano which you played every day for her.
6. There would be no music that night.
7. But if you wish to escape, let them see you for who you really are, the devil, then don’t go for the wedding.

But I know, more than anyone else, that if you don’t go, your heart would be at the wedding without you.

And that would mean that you are already dead…

Inspiration for Her Wedding